Saturday, June 11, 2016

HAVING A HARD TIME COULD NOT ALWAYS JUSTIFY OR BE USE AS AN EXCUSE FOR YOUR ACTION.

If you're having a hard and painful time, deal with it because it will pass if you do, it never lasts. But it doesn't give you the right to treat everyone like shit and having a hard time could not always justify or be use as excuse for what you did. Your action defines who you are, not what you say you are. And one of the biggest mistake you can make in your life is letting people stay in your life longer than they deserved to.



If there is a particular person in your life that is repeatedly choosing not to honour you and is causing you more sadness or pain than they are joy–it might be time to release that friendship/relationship back to God and trust it is not where you belong. A moment of clarity, that is the best thing that ever happened because now I'm free and its my life, I have the right to be exclusive and choose who I want to be in my life, and I do not welcome your kind; the toxic kind, a liar, and the deceiver.

Because no, the world doesn't revolve around you (or I for that matter) and yes, it's so easy to talk big but fortunately I'm more impressed if you only talk about the truth and only the truth. You've lied too much and everyone see right through all of your bullshit story and your lame excuses. Because sorry meant nothing when you don't mean it. I mean, its considerate for you to say it, but sometimes action does speak louder than words and you can justify it all you can but no amounts of excuses or justification can blur all the things you did and did not do.

The difference between you and me is that unlike you, I don't think myself as a victim. Being a victim means you are powerless. That you won't take action. Always... always I've done something to fight for myself, for others. No matter what. Unlike you, I avoid as much as possible not to make excuses for my action. I might be self-destructive, I might harm myself but I don't harm others—at least, I try not to—and if I do, I'll take the blame and be compassionate and I will apologise, and mean it with all I have. Because for all the suffering and pain I have endured and have to endure, I know its a part of me and will be a part of me, and I can blame others or look for sympathy and affirmation as much as I want, but all it did is just do me no good so I'll fight it and won't let it destroys me, I'll learn from it but never make myself a victim—never.

If you keep looking for sympathy as a justification for your action, you will someday be left standing alone when you really need help and I guess for you 'someday' is today, someday is now. Because do you have any friends anymore? Or someone who isn't sick of you and your bullshit? Yes? No? I'm guessing the latter.

And you know what, twisting the truth is lying and just because something isn't a lie does not mean it isn't deceptive, and keeping things hidden—rather secret—I think it's just as bad as lying. Because lies and secrets, they are like cancer to your soul; once its there, its hard to destroy them.

And you came back because of what? Because you've missed me? Or is it because you're lonely or just horny? Either way, it doesn't matter because baby, you're so full of shit. So go on, lie again. I fucking dare you.

You have less honour than a piece of shit.

Because its easy to talk big, but the important thing is whether or not you clean up the shit. So go peddle your bullshit somewhere else because I'm not buying it. No one does anymore. 

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