ONE DAY CLOSER TO THAT SOMEDAY

Life is a bitch, but wrong timing is the mother of all bitch. And sometimes, when you love someone but the timing is off, the only thing left to do is wrap your arms around each other one last time and then just... let go. Because separation and goodbyes are necessary and maybe sometimes distance will remind us how brilliant they are and so will teach us to appreciate its brilliance. Its honestly hard to lose anyone. 

I spent a lot of time searching for reasons and answers but I realised that you can't find what is not there. It just happened. Life is too short to play games. If you love somebody and you want to be with that person, then go get them. Deal with the mess later. We never know what tomorrow will bring. The worst case is that you'll fall in love and at some point, maybe the people that we love forget to love us back.

I guess what I'm trying to is that, sometimes when you love someone so much that its possible for your love to drive them away and sometimes they don't know what they've got until its gone. Please know that those people doesn't deserve you. 

I know. I'm still trying to accept that fact too but I guess we just need to remind ourselves that from time to time. And to remember not to try to fix something or someone when you're the one who needs fixing up. And sometimes all we need isn't fixing up. Sometimes all we need is just time to heal ourselves. And as you should already know, you should never force anything: love, friendship, etc. If its meant to be, then it will happen. 

if things don't work out, just hope that you did your best to make it work and you've given it your all because I think sometimes we waste our words and we don't take the time to say the things that are in our hearts when we have the chance. But I guess its true, things aren't always going to be fair in the real world. That's just the way it is. But for the most part, you get what you give.

Of course though, when faced with the unknown, most of us prefer to turn around and run. And sometimes it seems like you're the only one in the world who is struggling, who is frustrated, unsatisfied, barely getting by. 

But that feeling is a lie.

Richard Dawkins once said, "bad things, like good things don't happen any more often than they ought to by chance. The universe has no mind, no feelings, and no personality, so it doesn't do things in order to either hurt or please you. Bad things happen because things happen."

So when good things happen, its okay to let yourself be happy because you'll never know how fleeting that happiness might be. But when bad things happen, I guess we just need to stop and focus on the good things. Because happiness comes in many forms— in the company of good friends, or in the promise of hope renewed. You should have faith and trust in the Universe 

but lets not talk about sadness anymore or just not anytime soon. 

I'm tired of it. 

I need to believe that everything will work out the way they supposed to and I'm just gonna do my part or whatever it is I'm supposed to do and make the best out of it. 

To achieve greatness is relentlessly difficult but without all the pain that life gives you, you'll be stagnant and never find yourself able to strive for this greatness and thrive from all the pain and suffering. And to create magic so great in this mundane world, you'll not only need love but you need to understand pain, suffering, and sacrifices. Because if it comes easy, it won't be worth it, right?

Just know that things will be okay.

You're one day closer to reach that someday. 

p.s. I wrote this awhile ago and feel like the desire to publish it now.