"Whoever said money can't buy you happiness, didn't know where to shop" -Gittel Hudnick.”

I have thought about it many times.

Perhaps mostly because everyone besides myself seems to wonder when I'm going to find someone new. But I don't let it get to me. I'm not looking for someone new. I'm far from ready and I don't want to be in a relationship or have a crush with anyone. I just started to let go of my previous one.

There is a time for everything, and now is my time to heal. To grow strong and be whole in myself. Learn to live with myself, my scars and my memories. Learn how to feel safe within and not let that one single frightened voice in my head (the ego) stop me from having an open heart and dare to love unlimited. I've still got a lot of things to do in my life, i got too many dreams to chase. There is no time to chasing someone that is not worth my time.

What has been, has been. What is now is now. The rest is still unwritten.

"I believe in soul mates, but I don’t think that everyone has one, or that everyone will find their soul mate even if that person exists in the same historical era. I think it is also possible that your soul mate exists before or after you do and you find them through a book or a poem or a song."”

true story bro.

Cedric and Krum are hugging.

Filed under: Reasons why i love Robert Pattinson (not Edward Cullen) so much.

I miss you, Dad

Its been two weeks after dad passed away, but i still wish and think that dad will come back. still thinking that he's just gone to somewhere and will come back home soon. i miss when he's being highly annoying everyday and i remember the last couple of day before he went to the hospital, I'm trying to avoid him because I'm not in the mood to hear anything from anyone. and he did see me going to the bathroom but he's not saying goodnight until.. today.

the last couple of weeks he always said to me, "you'll me miss me don't you when i died?" and then he laughed. it kills me every time i remember he said that to me. and realising that now he's gone, i can't ever feel his hug anymore. he's the only person who always proud of me, he always love everything i did. he always supported me no matter what. and the only thing that i wanna do when I'm scared is just stay with him. i still can't believe that he's gone and i can't meet him anymore. i just always think that its too fast for me, but if the only way so dad won't feel any pain anymore, i think.. its okay? i guess?

tired with school, dad usually help me with everything. now i got no one to help me.. well i got someone but no one could really help me and understand what i needed to do, only dad does. well he sometimes don't get it but it took me awhile to make him understand, well it took my mom for awhile. i just feel lost without him, everything feels incomplete without him. i just wish that he's here and could see me someday making him proud because everything that he do to me.

you regret somethings last, so do everything that you should do like show your parents that you love them. because we never know what will going to happen next. enjoy your weekend and have a great month ;)

I miss you, Dad. Always.